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Ange gathers all the courage she has and instead of him she is the one to move her hand this time. Not away from him though, but instead her hand slowly and carefully moves until it's fully slipped under his' instead of just having those few fingers on it. And her heart just pounds, pounds, pounds.. ]
You are the only one I can rely on for sure. [ Not that she hasn't talked to other people here, but Ange just forever has trust issues, so it takes her a while to fully trust them - and they aren't anywhere close yet to the level she trusts Senji on. ] .. If something like that happened to you again, then.. I wouldn't know what to do again, so..
[ Her voice trails off. But it's obvious what she wanted to say, right? He has to stay alive too, no matter what. She wouldn't be able to handle it otherwise. ]
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It was such a weird feeling, that feeling of being wanted again, that feeling that maybe he belonged somewhere, belonged with someone... but even so, he was someone that she shouldn't have even gotten that close to in the first place, he's far too dangerous for her, that much is true. They're good as friends, more than that? No, no way.]
...So since you're alive and well in this place you should be allowed to be selfish. [so tell your brother who you are!!]
You might get mad at me when I say you can't do things like go to Haven North on your own, but it's just 'cause you're someone I want to keep alive the most.... [the most important person to him right now, really.]
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It's since they both know what it's like to lose everything and be completely cast out by the world, huh? And even if that isn't true, then she still knows it's true that she really just wants to stay with him, that she wants their days in this place to continue..
But the more she thinks about her words, the more easily she suddenly blurts it out, their backs still to each other-- ]
Moron, it's since all this time you've already been the person I wanted to see alive the most, so I didn't want you to go off on your own and maybe never come back..!
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Hah....?
[Senji turned, looking over his shoulder now, staring at her and he seemed to be, well, pretty irritated by that.]
Are you tryin' to say I ain't strong enough? You know I always come back!
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That's not what I meant.. I know you're strong, Senji. You're stronger than anyone else I know. [ Even as she says it, she doesn't turn around so their gazes can meet. Her voice is still a little softer than usually too. ] .. It's just.. well, you know what happened to you. Sometimes strength just doesn't matter in this place.
[ .. Slowly her hands form fists at her side, and now she finally turns to look over her shoulder too, although she isn't angry or anything, more like just.. upset, maybe. ]
.. And it's since my family left like that too one day and never came back..! [ It's why she has to watch over Battler now he's here too. She's already told herself that. Even if he doesn't know she's Ange, she's still going to protect him with all she has. ]
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It was just one time, it won't happen again either way.]
What are you tryin' to say? I'm as close to you as your family or some shit? Don't give me that. [he wouldn't believe her anyways, he's never been that important to anyone, he was always the little runt that had to cling to everyone else to feel like he was a hot-shot, but that's not who he is anymore.]
I'm not just training for myself anymore anyways! [he was feeling a little heated too, gritting his teeth at the thought of not being strong.]
Dumbass, maybe there are other reasons now that I wanna be stronger, ever think of that?! Yeah sure, I'm still doin' it for myself so I won't have to rely on anyone, but with you relyin' on me I have to get stronger so you can keep on relyin' on me!
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But the thought stops. Since she hears what he shouts at the end there. He's not only training for himself, but.. for her too..? Since she said she'd rely on him? So he can keep on fighting and living, and so he can protect her too..?
At least it cancels out the fear. But it doesn't stop the other emotions. ]
... You're.. just as important to me as my family. [ It comes out slowly, her own emotion more akin to sadness than anger. But isn't that how it usually is for them? It's even obvious in her expression since they're still looking at each other like this. ]
It's not a lie. I already said I wouldn't know what to do if you would have died for real, right..? It's since it'd be like that time I lost my family all over again.
[ Even if the feeling is slightly different.. it's still obvious that it's just as important as what she feels for her family, really. ]
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Senji simply stared at her after she said that, not believing what he was hearing at all. She.... really considered him to be that important, just as important as the family she lost twelve years ago?
He had a moment where he gave her a slack-jawed stare but the he closed his mouth, feeling a blush rise up to his face. Suddenly he was feeling so red again just like he had when he first touched her hand, but now she's at least able to see it.]
Y.... you...
[Well if she left then it would be like his cop friends all over again so.... he could actually say the same. But then he just turned around quickly again, not wanting her to see him at all.]
...Those are some powerful words, red.
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.. No. She knows she shouldn't hope for much. There's no way he feels the exact same way about her, right? Even if she's important, even so.. Ange gulps before trying to get herself in control more again. ]
Says the guy who just said he's becoming stronger so I can keep relying on him. [ Because those words were powerful too, Senji!
She fiddles with the ring on her finger again, before she takes it off entirely. Then she rolls it over the ground backwards towards him, that ring with the one-winged eagle on it. ]
.. That's why.. I'll rely on you to take care of this for me for a little bit. Battler onii-chan asked to meet up with 'Gretel' in a while. [ And while she could try to explain the arm band, she can't do the same about the one-of-a-kind ring. ]
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...It has that mark on it, that eagle, so this is something related to her family even? It must be really important and all so.... she's giving it to him? Aw man, he could feel his heart pounding against his chest and he cursed himself for feeling this way, he felt so impossibly vulnerable and he hated it.
This was way too weird for him.
But he still stayed with his back to her, not moving yet.]
Fine.... I'll keep it, but you will tell him you're Ange eventually, that kind of secret won't be kept here for long, I know it.
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[ She doesn't want to tell him. Or rather, she wants to, but she knows she shouldn't - so she won't. Even if it's true that someone might tell him sooner or later, but maybe she can just make up an excuse by then, or.. well, anything else. It's something to think of later. But Ange is just stubborn once she's set her mind on something, really, just like in this case.
And she should leave already to go see Battler, but.. whatever. Not like he'll realise how time passes here, it's impossible to tell without text for clocks. She can just claim she was right in time all along.
Just so.. until then, she can sit here for a little more, with him, their backs against each other..
A breath. ] Thanks, Senji.