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[ .. Geez. He got her on a bed with him hovering over her, he got her to smile and kiss him multiple times.. and then he still has to ask that? Although Ange can understand it a little, since he was insisting so much on them stopping this earlier, so he wants to make sure now.. and just in that, in all of this, she can notice how hard it must have been for him to say all those things too even though he wanted it this badly too.

So she immediately nods when he asks her. Right after, no hesitation. She confessed first, after all, she already made up her mind about this a bit ago. Her hands move up to his neck again, except this time it's to idly play a little with the chain even if the rest of it is back in his shirt. ]

I'll stay with you. [ And then softer, almost a little more embarassed but still genuinely-- ] .. There's nothing I'd want more than that.

[Shit... he feels so embarrassed now, his face flushes a little too when he hears her saying those words. Never in a million years did he ever think he could influence someone this much, so much that they wanted to even be in a relationship with him...

Senji nodded, basically hinting that he wanted the same from her, even though he was so unsure about this, he was feeling so strange and awkward but... he'd ... try and make it work since she wanted it so badly.

Senji moved a little, he brought his body down slightly so they were much closer, he even felt her chest pressing against his own and it made his heart skip a beat, but there was a reason for this. He felt even more compelled to protect her, he felt like he needed to make sure she was safe at all times, even now he felt so vulnerable but he wanted to keep her safe, even when she's underneath him.]

Then.... I'll... protect you, got it? [what are feelings, it's so hard to say shit stuff out loud.]

[ He's so close now.. honestly, her own heart is still pounding rapidly too, especially when he's leaning this close to her. Just his presence is enough to do this to her now, apparently. And she stares up at him as she hears him slowly speak up again, almost breathless.

He'll.. protect her, huh..? Normally she wouldn't easily let people do it, she's much too independant for it. She wants to do everything by herself, she was to prove she can fight by herself too, but.. this is different. If it's Senji, then maybe she won't mind as much, since she knows he's just doing it too so the two of them can stay together no matter what.

Besides, it's not like she can deny that it does feel safe like this. Him being so close to her, on top of her even.. there's no way anyone could hurt her right now. ]

.. Yeah. Even if I was already relying on you to begin with. [ In other words, she'll let him protect her, yes. ] Just.. don't push me away again. [ That's the only thing that scares her the most, really, like he tried to do earlier.. and even that time when he made her go back inside when the monsters were there, it'd be much less worrying if she could at least stay near him to make sure nothing bad is happening to him either. Not that she worries about his strength, but it's more.. how generally unpredictable this place is. ]

[When she says that he just stares at her for a moment, thinking about her words. Yeah, he shouldn't have been pushing her away, he really couldn't do it now anyways- even though there's something in the back of his mind that keeps telling him he's not good enough, that he's too dangerous for her, that because of him she might get seriously hurt.

He just keeps pushing that little voice down, and he swallows thickly, nodding at her words. He doesn't say anything else though, he moves down to her, his lips pressing against her own and he hums against her, sending vibrations running through both him and her. This was all so new to him, he's never done anything like this before- hell he's never even touched another girl before Ange, so this was definitely a leap for him.]

[ It's definitely new to her too, really - they're both so hopeless at this. Senji is the first guy she's liked this way, he's the first one who she allowed to be this close to her, just.. being on the same bed with her, and even leaning close to her and kissing her.. she doesn't mind if it's him, even if it's still a little embarassing. She trusts him.

And it's why she kisses him back, something eager in it despite said embarassment. Like she really does want him, that she's glad it ended like this instead of with him truly pushing her away. Like this, even if it's in this place, she can be happy, right? Her brother is here, he knows who she is, and Senji is now together with her, not to mention the friends she's made.. it's all she needs. Who cares if the world would collapse tomorrow, right now in this moment she's perfectly happy with his lips against hers.

Her hands move to the top of his head, slowly running through his hair just a little bit. ]

[When Senji feels her hands moving through his hair he groans a little against her, enjoying both the touch and the kiss. He was surprised with himself, actually, he was getting into this more than he had thought he would have. He was such an intense prude, even the mention of a woman would set him into some sort of fit, but here it was different, here he was with someone he could say he actually cared for.

The kissing goes on for a while but he feels the need to breathe, he feels like his head is so dizzy right now from everything that's just happened, so eventually he pulls away from her, his breathing a little shallow. He's not far from her though, he's still just staring down at her and he just... can't believe any of this.

...Where else could he kiss? Where else was he allowed to kiss? He frowned a little at the thought, his gaze moving off to the side.]

Y....you liked it when I... kissed your neck, right? [sdkdsds so awkward, but he's making sure! he's really never done this before so it's all totally new.]

You're gonna have to tell me what you like s...so I know...

[ She has to try and catch her breath too when he pulls away. She feels so out of breath, really, and it's all thanks to him, thanks to the way he kissed her.. Ange has honestly never thought she would even be in this situation, but here she is, right? Here she is, kissing Senji, and.. she loves him too, she really does.. Maybe that's why the feeling of the kiss is so nice, since she's sure she wouldn't care for kissing otherwise.

But as she's staring up at him and thinking about it, she suddenly hears his question and her entire face turns pink. How is she just supposed to answer that?! She knows she has to, but still, it's just.. just embarassing..

Although Ange knows she has to try, so she tries to take a deep breath to calm herself down, but her face is still red. ]

Y.. yeah, that was.. n-nice. [ She can admit that much, even if it's with difficulty. Somehow it felt extra nice there just now.. ] But I--.. I guess I like it when you kiss me n-no matter what, okay?

[ Every kiss he gives her is enough to send these feelings running through her entirely. ]

... Besides, in that case.. [ She glances off to the side even as she's lying there, clearly embarassed. ] .. you have to tell me what you like too..

[Oh god... what is this turning into even?! Well, when Ange says that, her gaze sliding off to the side he feels his own face heating up as well. He's not too.... sure how to... go about this so....

He swallows, shifting a little bit here and he stares down at her. She said she liked it when he kissed her neck and everything, so he figured he'll try that next.]

I just.... like this, I guess. [just being close to her, and just trying out this new concept called kissing. He moves in towards her, leaning down a little closer and he goes to her jawline, placing kisses along there. He moved to her neck, his lips gliding over her flesh, feeling how soft she is, the warmth all across his mouth as he kissed at her pulse, sucking lightly even. Well, might as well just follow his instinct here, this seems like the right thing to do.]

[ She can understand that at least. After all, Ange likes it too, just.. being close.. not to mention that she really does like it when he kisses her like that. Almost subconsciously she moves her head a little as she's lying there to allow him more access to her neck's skin, and she shivers slightly when he sucks a little on it. It's even more weird to think it's new for both of them, not just for her, but that's what makes it nicer. It means they're both going through the same feelings, the newness of it all and the unsureness..

.. It's still strange though, thinking about it. It's been a long twelve years, even longer since being in Asgard and then here, but.. there's never been a place where she's felt more safe than here right underneath him. And there hasn't been a moment where she felt happier either.. maybe the moment she saw her brother again, alive, but somehow it feels like a different kind of happy.

(Vaguely the thought of what Battler would think about all this crosses her mind, but she shoves it aside.) ]

.. Yes, t.. that's nice.. [ Basically letting him know she likes it when he does this. ]

[Senji is someone that figured it was really too late for him, and somewhere deep down he still does think that. Being here and being happy with her- he never would have imagined it ever. He recalled the time he had tried to get a job after getting kicked out of prison, he just couldn't do it, he's someone that's so far gone that he can't function in society normally.

Asgard had changed him a little though, he had eventually talked to everyone there and became a little more open, a little more willing to do things like be accepted in that community. Here in Haven, he's faced a lot of bullshit, and if Ange weren't here he would have probably gone right back to acting like Crow, like that monster he was in prison.

Senji continued to suck on her flesh, glad that she moved her head to give him more access, he slowly kissed at every spot, and when he sucked again he brought his tongue out towards her, lapping at the skin and he hummed a little against her, the vibrations she could probably feel.

When he pulled away he realized that she would be marked from that, it would totally leave marks.... oh shit....]

I... I can say I like this.... a lot. [it's true.]

[ She hardly even realises it could leave a mark or that it does - she won't be able to see it herself unless she'd look into a mirror either way, so she's completely oblivious to the fact. Ange's just too caught up in all of this, since it does feel nice, making a warm feeling slowly spread in her chest the most he kisses there, and she can swear she feels her heart skip a beat when he hums against her neck like that, her face still red.

But when he pulls away and speaks she at least moves her head so she can look up at him again. It's a relief he says it, at least, since.. they just both like this, being close to each other and kissing, despite never having done it before.. Ah, she really can't let go of him anymore now. ]

.. I'm glad..

[ Her hand sneaks underneath his' that's supporting him on the bed, and slowly but surely she moves so her fingers are intertwining with his', holding his hand that way. Last time they didn't get this far since there were still all these issues between them, but.. now she just really does want to hold his hand a little here, as childish or sappy as it might seem. ]

[He's glad too... so much so that he smiles a little bit, that lopsided smirk on his face as he stares down at her. When he felt her hand go to his, slipping under it and everything... ah, she wanted to... hold hands? Senji looked over at their hands, he brought hers up a little further and he pinned her hand down on the bed, his grip tightening a little, letting her know that he liked this too.

Really, any kind of interaction or touching her he seemed to like, much more than he thought.

His heart was still beating rapidly, his head felt so dizzy, all because of what they had done, it was all so much in such a short period of time.]

Can we just.... keep this a secret though? [issues, all the issues.]

[ She just wants to stay like this forever, this close to him. This place is supposed to be a hell, but with both Senji and Battler by her side it's more like heaven than Haven. That means that there's no reason to be scared at all, right..? There's no way she can be scared with the guy's reassuring squeeze. He's there for her, he likes her just as much as she likes him, as she likes this..

She doesn't know the exact reason why he wants it. Or rather, she can guess at multiple ones and isn't sure which one it is exactly, but it's not like it matters. If he wants to keep it that way, then that's fine with her - she would prefer to not feel embarassed over it either way, not to mention what would happen if Battler would find out. ]

.. I won't tell anyone. Promise.

[...Maybe he should explain to her why he feels like he wants to keep it a secret. Well, for one he is overly embarrassed about it, he really can't accept he's even with someone right now, especially someone like Ange. To him, Ange is someone that fits with him perfectly, someone that understands him and isn't afraid to go up against him when his temper runs wild.

She has guts, he admires that so much.

Senji shifts a little, and instead of hovering over her he goes to lay down beside her, so close to her still, his hand still holding hers but he's staying beside her now.]

Everyone knew about my group of friends when I was a cop, and if we tell others about this then maybe.... [maybe it'll be like admitting they're together and someone might hear, they might try and tear them apart.]

Shit.... I don't know, someone might find it funny if we lost one another.

[ .. Yeah. She just stares at him when he lies down next to her like that, listening quietly to what he's telling her. Ange could have figured he'd say that, she knows his past after all, he told her all about it in Asgard. It was because of him that his friends were killed, those guys from the police he worked with.. and he blames himself for it so much even now, she knows that too. She knows it from the way he told her so desperately in Haven North, that day when everything had been falling apart.

But she at least doesn't want him to worry about this, worry about her - she just wants him to be happy just like how she's happy with this, happy with being right next to him like this. If she can even lift just a tiny bit of the burden from his heart.. ]

.. Yeah, I know. [ She wouldn't put it past this place, either way. They already used their memories against them, so why not relationships next? ] I don't want those lame scientists to know about this.

[ Or any other sadistic person in this place, really. Her voice is a little softer now they're this close, like it's really something between the two of them. ]

You won't lose me though, Senji. I'll.. try with everything I've got for that.

[ When she says that, she squeezes his hand lightly, moving slightly even closer to him. ]

Edited 2013-02-20 09:40 (UTC)

[When she squeezed his hand, even moving closer to him he just looks over at her, not saying anything for the moment, just thinking about her- thinking about this....

...Well, maybe he could finally be happy, just maybe. Ange made him happy so...]

I know.

[He knows how stubborn she is, how determined she can be at times, how she's not afraid, and he admires that since he was the one worried about this from the start.]

You're no pushover, I don't have to constantly look out for you but.... don't get mad if I end up doin' that, got it?

[ When he says that she can't help but think back of that first time he protected here in Haven, when all those monsters were all over the place and he just literally forced her back into the apartements.. back then she already understood why he did it, but she couldn't help but protest, she didn't want to seem weak, she could bear it by herself just like usually, so she really did protest to him.

But.. this is different. By now she doesn't need to hide it anymore.. not even her weak side, she can just show all of it to him. So in that case, just maybe.. ]

.. If it's you, then.. I guess I wouldn't mind that sometimes. [ But only Senji. There's still a distance she puts between herself and other people, of course, Ange won't just change that easily. Her gaze slips from the mattress to him. ] That's what relying on you means either way, right?

Y-yeah.... [he's really glad that she's relying on him so much, that's all he's ever really wanted after all.

Senji shifts awkwardly though, and he holds her hand a little tighter. He figures that they should go back by now, that there's been enough of this, it's all so damn sappy for him it's a little too much...

...Ah but... if they go back then they'll really have to hide this.]

Can I just... [He frowns at the thought, and then leans in to kiss her again, his lips lingering on hers before pulling away once more. He doesn't say anything, but he stares into her eyes and waits for an answer. He's basically asking to just keep kissing her for a while okay...]

[ She doesn't want to go yet either, honestly. Just being here with him privately and.. even intimately.. it's nice. Nicer than she could have thought it would be, even. Though it's Haven, even though it's a place like this, she still feels happy and safe around him, it's a really weird kind of feeling that she hasn't felt much before. But if she's honest with herself, she has to say she likes it, she really does.

When he half asks something and then kisses her she seems a little surprised at first, but she's quick to return the kiss, her lips meeting his own even if it's briefly. When he doesn't speak up she has to figure out what he meant for a moment, the confusion is clearly visible in her eyes as they exchange gazes, but then she understands.

And she knows it's what she wants too. So she gives a tiny nod, her heart feeling like it's pounding its way out of her chest. ]

We're.. [ .. it's difficult to say, but it's the truth, so.. ] .. we're together now, so.. you.. never have to ask that. [ It's not like she'd ever mind. Not with Senji. ] Just do it, okay..?

[Just do it..... really, is that something she should be saying in a situation like this? Well, not like he knows what should properly be said anyways, he's someone that's never even been in a relationship before, never even liked someone as much as this. He was made fun of several times in Asgard for being what everyone else considered to be gay, just because he hadn't kissed anyone before- but now....

Seriously, they all couldn't have bee further from the truth about him.

He nodded at her words, and he moves to lean in towards her, pressing his lips on hers once more, humming a little against her, enjoying the taste of her, the feel of her mouth against his own. He was feeling a bit more bold though, so Senji moved to part his lips a little, hoping she would follow him and do the same.]

[ Yeah, not like Ange has any idea of what to say or do either, it's.. completely new to her, all of this, she even told people here before that romance isn't anything for her, but.. like this with Senji she really likes it, even if it's just being close to him. And them touching is even better, and them kissing is.. well, it feels perfect. When he just hums he already sends the vibrations all throughout her, shivers running down her spine. She hardly even cares that they're in a place like this right now, on some sort of old bed -- that doesn't matter as long as she can just do this with him.

Then she feels him parting his lips though, and.. oh, she's getting into it as well, but despite that she can't help but still feel her cheeks flush a little at the thought. If he's opening his mouth then that can.. only mean one thing, right..?

But it's not like she really hesitates, she still opens her lips a little too right after he does it, following a step behind him. But aside from that she doesn't do anything, she's too flustered to be the first one to take the next step. ]

[He's really flustered too okay! Not like he's ever done this, so he's really just going off by instinct here, just testing the waters and seeing what he can do- what he's allowed to do and seeing how things even work. He's sure it's done like this but.... might as well keep going here.

Senji, after gaining enough confidence here, pushing his tongue forward, going to move against hers, playing with it and tasting her, exploring her even further. He... he's inexperienced completely, but he's trying here, and he likes going deeper, he likes this kind of contact- he doesn't even want to break it off with her ever.

Maybe he just loves her... but he'll never be able to say it.]

[ At least he's taking the lead a little here, if both of them just stay awkward forever then they'll have a hard time.. but they're getting by at their own pace, honestly.

She can feel his tongue moving into her mouth and it's definitely a strange feeling of how new it is. But Ange tries her best too, moving her tongue along with his' and even playing with it a little like that. It's not like it's a bad feeling either way, it's nice, doing this kind of thing with him. No one's done this to her before, and she won't let it be anyone other than Senji either way. She can't even imagine liking someone else the way she likes him, there isn't a single person out there like him, so hurt and yet so strong at the same time. It's really admirable.

Having a deep kiss like this with him ends up feeling so nice to her in fact that she even ends up groaning lightly against him from it without even realising at first. ]

[Yeah, he's one of a kind alright. He's been through so much and he just keeps pushing forward, wanting her and everyone else to do the same. It's why he's at least going along with this now, it's why he's with her, he really does have feelings for her that go beyond what he can even understand.

It's why he too groans against her, pressing his mouth against hers a little more, tasting her and exploring her mouth with his tongue, feeling her like this was so different, he wasn't used to it at all.

Eventually he pulled away, wanting to at least breathe before he passed out. He slowly did, and he actually had a smirk on his face, feeling happy from that little situation.]

Who woulda thought we'd end up gettin' together... [never even crossed his mind when they first met at all.]

[ When he pulls away she feels like she's completely out of breath, just because she was doing this sort of thing with him. Her breathing is even a little heavy as she tries to regain air, staring up at him from where she's lying. It even takes a few moments for her to be able to speak up in return to what he said. ]

.. Apparently.. that's just what happens when you help out a stabbed girl. [ Not that she could have imagined it. It's so weird though, the oldest days in Asgard feel so far away now. When Minatsuki was still around and Amakusa, when people kept making jokes about Senji being gay - which are, in retrospective considering the current situation, fairly hilariously wrong - and when he saved her life for the first time. Even though they didn't even know each other all that much. It was that moment that she realised he really is a good person at his core, huh? No matter what he himself or anyone else might say. ]

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