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She swallows the sigh that's building up, ultimately.]

I suppose we could, I'll try to convince her to get rid of it once she comes back. What will you do then, A- [...ah] Ushiromiya-san?

[ ..

Huh. Almost like the tension is gone. Well, whatever it was, maybe Ciel just had some personal sort of thing with those messages.. did she get one too back then? Maybe she should ask about it some other time. Especially if it's a problem for her.

But with that slip up there, she can't help but focus on that before answering the actual question.. ]

You can say Ange if you want to, you know. I don't really care for formalities. [ She mostly does it with some people here since she actually wants to put effort into being semi-nice to some people instead of being a little shit 24/7 like back home. ]

Ah... Are you sure? You're still Japanese, and first-name bases are...

[she lets it hang, but she'd be lying if this wasn't a welcome subject change. HERP DERP...]

[ She waves one hand slightly, almost dismissively. ]

I'd rather have someone call me Ange and be kind than having them call me Ushiromiya-san and be nothing but crappy to me. [ She's endured enough of the latter, after all. ] Really, it's fine. My name sounds western to begin with, right?

[...Ouch, that sounded a little personal. Like hinting towards bullying experience, except logic dictates that since these things should be long behind her, there's no point in dredging up past unpleasant memories.

So nodding lightly, she chuckles quietly.]

If you're sure, but that's true, too. 'Ange' is a French word; you likely already know, right, Ange-san?

Hmm. It means angel, doesn't it?

[ Not that Ange's.. French.. is really any good.. she probably had classes French at school, but she never paid much attention to anything there, so she doesn't remember much than a few random things and even that's at best. Her name is another story though. ]

.. Even though I don't really think it suits me. But I'm stuck with it either way, so I guess it doesn't really matter.

Oui, c'est ça! [then ciel'll do it for them both, nodding with a smile.]

It's a nice name, though! Has no one ever called you Tenshi-san?

[that's just teasing now, ciel...]

[ Wow, showing off much there, Ciel!! ]

If they would, I probably would have punched them in the face. [ And despite her deadpan tone, it's not.. really.. a joke.. she might actually have, depending on the person who did it. ] It sounds more like a lame joke than anything else. Usually people either call me "Ushiromiya-san", "Ange-san" or "lady". [ Yes, lady as in "ojou" without the respectful and usual -sama added at the end.. so the meaning is practically ruined by that. ]

[she's actually a lot more prone to gratuitous french usually, okay]

I think it'd be a fitting nickname... [as if she's really as disappointed as she sounds...]

Lady? I didn't know your family was influential!

[ It's an embarassing nickname, Ciel! And not fitting at all! But she figures the more she insists, the more obvious her embarassment will be.. come on, Ange, just take a deep breath, count to ten, find your pokerface... ]

We just have a lot of money. About [ insert some pretty high sum here.. we're talking "one of the most rich people in Japan, probably top 3 or so" standards here, yes. ] or so. Not that it means I'm influential or anything though, so I figured there wasn't any need to bring it up in a place like this.

[good choice, she's learning...

but wow! and the surprise is open on her face]

--My goodness. Right, that's true, and while it's a little cliched, that explains why you have such an extensive family.

...

Was it a burden?

Also why most of them try to be super fancy, right? [ It's a weird idea that Ciel might somehow have met more of her family than she has in years thanks to Mayfield shenanigans, but it's not like she's bitter or anything about it. By now she can just casuall shove it aside. ]

But of course it was a pain, isn't money always like that? They were always arguing about it, but it was no use since they after all all just died in the end. That made me the sole heir to all of it.

...

I remember, but somewhat vaguely. The old man was especially eccentric, maybe that was your grandfather...? [cheek scratch, herp derp

but oh, at that casual toss-out, ciel just turns around to eye ange quietly. ...money only buys death, huh.

let's skip out on the "I'm sorry"s.]

Mm. The succession and will arguments must've been terrible. [since ange is taking it like that...] ...if you could be reborn, [...] Ange-san, what would you want to be?

..

Well, if you've met grandfather, you've met them all. That guy's like a symbol of everything wrong with this family.

[ No kidding whatsoever. If Ciel met Kinzo, then Ange is fairly sure Ciel would already understand.. ]

As to your second question though.. that's a pretty heavy kind of thing to ask, right?

[ It's why she's quiet for a moment, thinking about it as she stares up towards the sky. It's weird, thinking about how many answers she could have had before. To be anything but her. To be happy, live a normal life, to be with her family, to be someone who could prevent her family from dying.

.. Did she really leave that all behind? Because when she thinks about it now, it's like she can't even feel the heavy weight anymore. ]

If I could be reborn.. I'd like to just be reborn as me. I can't deny that my life has been pretty crappy, and there's been plenty of times where I wished it would just end for weeks on end, but.. if it's the only path to get to this point where I am now, then I wouldn't want to trade it in for anyone else. I'm pretty sure I'm going to have to apologize for it to my parents in the afterlife since I never did turn out like some cute girl the way I was supposed to, but.. this is me. A gloomy and slightly boring girl, but I'm happy.

.. Pretty corny, isn't it?

I... see.

[there is nothing to say beyond that. it's vague, but she still remembers an old fart, also she trusts ange, so she'll take her word for it.

...

an answer like that though, haha.]

It depends on the perspective. I confess, I would expect you to say something like a rabbit, or a cat.

[She's wearing a faint and teasing smile, but not taking herself seriously in the least, and she makes no show of hiding it.]

Haha. I'm really impressed actually, Ange-san. That was very moving, and it takes a lot of strength, to be able to say out loud something like that. Despite all the hints you've dropped, to still go ahead and say that sort of thing with your usual expression...

[She looks away, ducking her head a little.]

I'm a little envious, personally.

[ For a very, very brief moment, Ange imagines herself as a rabbit. And she wrinkles her nose at the thought, it's too weird... she's not cute like that, okay! ]

I don't think it's something to be jealous of.. [ Nor is she so strong - or so she thinks, at least. Ange wants to be strong more than anything, but she knows her own weakness more than anyone else. It's why she can't accept the compliment as easily - especially not when it comes from Ciel, who always seems so much like she has everything together. ]

I mean, it's just the conclusion I arrived at after a really, really long journey. Maybe it's exactly that kind of experience that slowly changes you into an old lady who can say corny stuff like that, so in that case you should know more about it than me, Ciel-san.

'Envious' and 'jealous' aren't the same thing. Not exactly!

[don't ask how are they not

but she chuckles quietly, watching Ange fondly.]

Maybe I do, but it doesn't mean I have to like or accept it. I wouldn't change my past, but if I'm to be reborn, the life I've led has been too exhausting for me to consider redoing it all over again. Although I wouldn't complain anyway, I suppose... Haha.

[...]

And I'm not that old. Do I really look like it at all, to you?

[ Exhausting, huh.. she doesn't know much about Ciel's life before this place at all - aside from hearing about Mayfield, but she doesn't know anything about her world. What kind of place was it..? Ciel always seemed so well-adjusted that she hadn't thought much of it, but for her to say something like that now..

.. well, the past is the past. It's something she very well knows too by now. ]

No, it's more of a mental thing. I could easily see people calling you an adult, while it'd probably be a far stretch for anyone to say the same about me. [ That's putting it in the nicest way possible.. old spinster Ciel. ] Then again, this kind of conversation does sound like something two old ladies would talk about. Maybe I've seriously gone too far this time.

I still blame it over the fact that Mayfield shoved me in a Mother slot for two years. I could've been in a child slot and passed off for a third year senior for at least one more year, you know?

[small sigh! of tragedy!!]

But that didn't happen. I woke up as Merem's mother, and I was treated as an adult for two years. I really would've been a more senpai sort of person, otherwise. Which year of high school were you in by the way, Ange-san?

[ignoring the old ladies part, okok]

.. That guy? [ Yes, she does know Merem, considering she let him drink her blood in exchange for having him pop up if she'd ever need help.. clearly that's the way to becoming more capable of handling stuff by yourself, right. But even if it's quite a bit ago now in Haven, she sure does still remember him. ] I don't know if the idea of you being his mother is amusing or that I should just feel pity for you.

But back home I only just graduated high school. I'm already eighteen, after all.

[ Or.. well, probably slightly older now, but keeping track of it in Asgard and Haven is just a pain. ]

A little bit of both. As his assigned mother, I had the chance to advertize him over the phones by using 'concerned mother looking for suitable date for her perfect angelic son in light of prom night' as a perfect excuse. There was even another boy who volunteered! I'm sure the director could've appreciated that also, if nothing else.

[CASUALLY SAID... and somewhere across frozen multiverses, merem doesn't sneeze but maybe the rat king just twitched his nose.]

See, we should be around the same age. There's no way I look old!

[complaining is what old people do, though...]

Edited 2013-10-28 21:58 (UTC)

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Merem... at prom night.. and Ciel acting at the concerned mom, and...

She's not even going to try thinking of this. It's going to break her brain. Let's shove it into a dark "let's never mention this ever again" corner. ]

It's not just about looking old though, you know. I still have plenty of youthful zeal, it's why I don't seem like an old lady. [ youthful zeal ange pls... ]

[come on ange IT'S HILARIOUS

sigh

look each to their own in trying to catch breaks de-stressing ok. and it's perfectly ok if this is done at the expense of unpleasant and questionable co-workers you may or may not still actually genuinely care about...]

You look younger than you really are to me, physically. I don't about zeal, though...

[ange you're more like charles

but charles can claim it because he is pretty zealous about his anger issues and grudges

y tu??]

[ It's actually pretty sad just how much Ange and Charles have in common despite them being completely different in nature.. aka girl turned witch and old man vampire who looks like a kid.. ]

Do I really look that much like a kid? [ She's not sure if it bothers her or not - it's just a strange feeling to be called that way now. It's never really been anything she thought about. After a brief frown though, she reaches up, and with a fairly simple movement she grabs her hair decorations and pulls them right out of her hair, making her pigtails fall down at the sides of her head to mix in with the rest of her hair so it all just hangs down. ] .. There, I don't look that young anymore now, right? Or it should help, at least.

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